Soup of confession

So today's been up&down. A lot like yesterday. I'm strange, my mood changes so much in just on day! Yesterday i went from feeling just ok, maybe slightly lonesome, to being irritated& sad, mostly with myself, then to jolly with the completion of watching Daddy Daycare, then to confused and sad, bcos I could find the words to write an emotional email.

Today was our first day of silence in LifeTeams, for 4 hours we weren't to talk or engage in things to entertain and distract us, but to spend the time with a Bible & a journal in our hands, questioning & listening to God. I was stressed before we began, aggitated for no reason, so my journal began with confusing rants&questions that were like a whirlwind. God had been showing me i needed to confess to him stuff - like all these angry feelings I'd been holding onto. I held off, but then when I had to put some soup into a dish to put in the fridge, I had the idea to ladel the soup out and confess to Jesus all those things I'd been holding onto, one ladel, one sin, at a time. And from then my thoughts and emotions had clarity, and the jouranl seemed systematic, it's easy to read those entries, and they are insights & issues & bible verses that poped into my head! I know that was God talking to me, I glad he's so kind to me.

Now I'm at Jan's glad that God is with me through everything - every pain, every confusion, every stress, every need, every joy, every gift, everything.

"Rejoice in the Lord always" philippians 4:4

Adios matabosa !