Hope in Life, Above Hope in Death

Got plans, well ideas for the summer and next year now... Can go to Dawson with her and live have a part time job and work in that small community with the youth, and just be me, relax, and aswell have someone in my life who's gona be consistant. AND/OR can live in my grans house when I go back to Plymouth, get a job and save til I can get my own place or begin travelling. i don't have to go and live at 53m again. I can travel around England, with different friends/ visiting different friends/ Kryssi can come and stay and we'd travel. Can travel in Europe and see Anne, and Amsterdam, and Italy, and southern France... Can travel all over world, cross all of the world! I have hopes for the future, I have a future.

Say Hi, "Hi"

So yeah i've been wanting to fly away live in a tent at a campsite be a waitress and smoke blunts all day. what's up with that eh?

Haven't done it. and kinda sure i'm not gona beacuse I know everything here is GOOD, I like it all, and I know it's God showing me that, but I feel so much so BAD inside.

God put me right with him on Weds night. and over last week has been showing me so much in my world and in me like so much i didn't fully realise, stuff I need to deal with, why I do some things, and what it is that i really want. But still I find myself right now looking at the Amsterdam tourist website wishing I could be somewhere else

What is this? !

...driving in the sun from Milan to Marseille, and yet when I think about it realistically I wouldn't even like it, it'll be boring and lonely and lacking, not being capable to speak to anyone

When what I really want is to go back in time to being 16 to live in a home with a dad who would hold me and let me cry brothers who would protect me and make me smile...sisters I would listen to and they'd listen to me mum who would challenge and encourage me

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