X - Lifeteams

Lifeteams is ova. Schools out. Roommates all dispersed. And life feels exactly the same, and yet almost different. I guess my head and emotions kinda think it's just a holiday. Maybe subconsiously i'm in mourning, that could be why i've been crying so much. Nah i think that was other stuff. (same old crap, but God's a healin God, I choose to trust him) I was more upset about the end of Lifeteams before we ended than since! weird! It was the fear of ...so much... but now i just dont really care so much, again probabaly due to the holiday thinking...? any insight let me know. send it on a self-addressed envelope to PO Box...... do u remember that, oooo!

I've been a tiling helper today (that's my own self-given title oh yeah!) Len and Jan 's little assistant! staining, cleaning, and carrying have been my skills today. It was a long day, wohh, hard work, i guess i didn;t expect. It's so good to be paying my way some how, as Jan and Len are housing and feeding me! Think we're doing some tomorrow too, i'm gona learn how to grouat (yeah i cant spell it ha!) pray please.

Got a package from my mum today - tea & perfume! mmmm! i smell peppermint romance! (well i don't, but i will if i mix stuff...!)

Realised just earlier as i lay listening to the rain, I'm free. Yeah . There's nothing i'm tied to at all. I could go anywhere (kinda, there's a slight / drastic lack o funds...) but realistically i have nowhere i HAVE to be, i could go at anytime with no disappointment upon myself or anyone else. I 'm free. Any responsibility i'm taking now, I'm choosing to take. Freedom wow!

.........does any1 know where a CD drive on an imac is? ...i wana load a picture!

tenderness patience encouragement

With Love... Hungry x

Captivating

Listen to the voice of the King, this is God's heart toward you:

For Zion's sake I will not keep silent,
for Jerusalem's sake I will not remain quiet,
till her righteousness shines out like the dawn,
her salvation like a blazing torch.
The nations will see your righteousness,
and all kings your glory;
you will be called by a new name
that the mouth of the LORD will bestow.
You will be a crown of splendor in the LORD's hand,
a royal diadem in the hand of your God.
No longer will they call you Deserted,
or name your land Desolate.
But you will be called Hephzibah, [my delight is in her]
and your land Beulah [married] ;
for the LORD will take delight in you,
and your land will be married.
As a young man marries a maiden . . .
as a bridegroom rejoices over his bride,
so will your God rejoice over you. (Isaiah 62:1-5)

3 Things I Never Want to Forget

- from being at Lifeteams -

To choose to do good and not evil today, and not worry about tomorrow ...Ephesians 5:17

To forgive those who are a part of causing wounds & hurts on me. Pray for them, & all who I have difficulty in my heart with
...Matthew 5:44

God daily loves-on me

LA LA LA I CAN SING, LA LA LA, LA LA LA

yeah hi guys. i read your blogs hope that was okay, eh? eh? eh?

Just a lazy n distracted "canadian" gal, who has been some (okay a lot) lazy n distracted this year when it comes to being faithful in friendships from a distance! ...did that sentance make sense, yeah whateva i know what i meant! ha.

AND i worked out how to do the "link" thing, right on eh? ! ...and this minute even how to add a picture, everyone say ooooooooo! A pic so u can see how i've changed, although was infact a few months ago, but it has the lip piercing...ooooo ahhhh, but not the tattoo - yep thats correct i marked myself, well actually this bloke from mississauga artistically stabbed me for it - the whole inch and a half for the two lines of a cross on my wrist! ha ha, i'm laughin at myself!

Can't see that i since dyed my hair red ...caribeean mahogany actually (cos it was called caribean is why i bought it, that's right i'm not ashamed!) ..........Yepiola it's been a year of random changes. I think i in character have changed too, in a good way i think. Pray in the transition to life of no-lifeteams, God keeps his grip on me, and makes me disciplined in the things i love, and not unhealthily guilty in the things i don't love... romans 7:15 'I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. '

I have a place to stay come 29th, so awesome, as didn't have any confirmation, was panicing some about that, all future is in the air - and it seems no matter how high i jump i just cant reach that balloon and pull it down toward me, to burst it and see what answers fall like confetti on my lap! But as with that unsecure thing, i know i can trust God with it all, he is faithful and good to us, to me. (Remember sarah remember!)

I heard a lota birds chirping outside, and the room's getting lighter, does that mean i should go to bed now, hummm ?
Me thinks yes!

nighty nighty jon-boy

SARAH

- i like cricket

i actually understand it

i wana watch a match right now

boring u say? oh u just don't know!

faith hope love

faith
Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. (Hebrews 11:1)

hope
And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. (Romans 5:5)

love
"Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?" Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.' This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments."(Matthew 22:36-40)But the greatest of these is love. (1 Corinthians 13:13)

i stole this from someone else's blog... shine.is.dead

but he stole it too - it's in the Bible baby!

so i'm updating right now...!!!

Yeah life is better.

I like it now - most the time!

It was hard this year, maybe harder than it's ever been.

It's not the place or the people - throughout being here that's all been beautiful gifts, that I'm so thankful for! (It's gona be crazy leaving!!)

It was battle's that had to be fought, and lessons that had to be learnt, and a death that I had to die. Wounds that were gaping but that I didn't see that caused me to be faint, and that needed healing that only ONE source could provide. HE has been the answer throughout this, he is the only answer there is I think - he's the only one to provide peace, and without peace there is not satisfaction, no pure pleasure, no absolute delight, nothing means anything, and everything means nothing.

But HE has been my guide, and the lifter of my head, and my salvation, and the one restoring to brighter things than was b4.

HE has been my perfect dear father, holding my right hand through all of this and still is now, he will not let go, and he will always fight - to protect me, defend me, direct me to the path of truth, and lift my head again when it wanders.

I'm balanced a lot more now - and I realise my feelings are messengers, useful, but not to be taken as truth, they move and are different like the waves.

'If we died with him,
we will also live with him;
if we endure,
we will also reign with him.
If we disown him,
he will also disown us;
if we are faithless,
he will remain faithful,
for he cannot disown himself. '
2Tim2

As has been said, did I join LifeTeams or did I join DeathTeams, both I guess...

Shalom to all I know and all who read. x