X - Lifeteams

Lifeteams is ova. Schools out. Roommates all dispersed. And life feels exactly the same, and yet almost different. I guess my head and emotions kinda think it's just a holiday. Maybe subconsiously i'm in mourning, that could be why i've been crying so much. Nah i think that was other stuff. (same old crap, but God's a healin God, I choose to trust him) I was more upset about the end of Lifeteams before we ended than since! weird! It was the fear of ...so much... but now i just dont really care so much, again probabaly due to the holiday thinking...? any insight let me know. send it on a self-addressed envelope to PO Box...... do u remember that, oooo!

I've been a tiling helper today (that's my own self-given title oh yeah!) Len and Jan 's little assistant! staining, cleaning, and carrying have been my skills today. It was a long day, wohh, hard work, i guess i didn;t expect. It's so good to be paying my way some how, as Jan and Len are housing and feeding me! Think we're doing some tomorrow too, i'm gona learn how to grouat (yeah i cant spell it ha!) pray please.

Got a package from my mum today - tea & perfume! mmmm! i smell peppermint romance! (well i don't, but i will if i mix stuff...!)

Realised just earlier as i lay listening to the rain, I'm free. Yeah . There's nothing i'm tied to at all. I could go anywhere (kinda, there's a slight / drastic lack o funds...) but realistically i have nowhere i HAVE to be, i could go at anytime with no disappointment upon myself or anyone else. I 'm free. Any responsibility i'm taking now, I'm choosing to take. Freedom wow!

.........does any1 know where a CD drive on an imac is? ...i wana load a picture!

tenderness patience encouragement

With Love... Hungry x