so i'm updating right now...!!!

Yeah life is better.

I like it now - most the time!

It was hard this year, maybe harder than it's ever been.

It's not the place or the people - throughout being here that's all been beautiful gifts, that I'm so thankful for! (It's gona be crazy leaving!!)

It was battle's that had to be fought, and lessons that had to be learnt, and a death that I had to die. Wounds that were gaping but that I didn't see that caused me to be faint, and that needed healing that only ONE source could provide. HE has been the answer throughout this, he is the only answer there is I think - he's the only one to provide peace, and without peace there is not satisfaction, no pure pleasure, no absolute delight, nothing means anything, and everything means nothing.

But HE has been my guide, and the lifter of my head, and my salvation, and the one restoring to brighter things than was b4.

HE has been my perfect dear father, holding my right hand through all of this and still is now, he will not let go, and he will always fight - to protect me, defend me, direct me to the path of truth, and lift my head again when it wanders.

I'm balanced a lot more now - and I realise my feelings are messengers, useful, but not to be taken as truth, they move and are different like the waves.

'If we died with him,
we will also live with him;
if we endure,
we will also reign with him.
If we disown him,
he will also disown us;
if we are faithless,
he will remain faithful,
for he cannot disown himself. '
2Tim2

As has been said, did I join LifeTeams or did I join DeathTeams, both I guess...

Shalom to all I know and all who read. x